Filed under: Rants
Time: 5:04 pm
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The show went pretty good yesterday.

Except for the fact the my drummer is a controlling, manipulative asshole who screams at me all the time.

We started playing one of our originals - It has words, but at the time I could not remember them. So I decided not to sing it, just play without words. It sounds pretty good without words anyway. Of course, my drummer would not stand for this and had to throw a little fit about it in front of everyone while we were playing the song. He kept yelling at me, SING THE DAMN SONG YOU FAGGOT! I kept trying to tell him that I couldn't remember the words. But he just kept yelling at me.

The show was fine after that, but that's not the only time he's done something like this to me.

We practice a lot. A few times a week. And of course he yells at me then too because i sometimes mess up, or forget a part to a song. But that's practice, of course we'll screw up then.

Yesterday before the show, he wrote a note to my boss saying that the two of us can't work next friday because we're playing a show. That pissed me off a lot, because first off he didn't tell me about the show, and then he said I couldn't work without asking me. And it turns out that I can work the earlier shift that day because the show doesn't start until 7.

I don't know what to do. I don't want him to treat me like shit anymore. I just need a break from him for a while. I mean, he is my friend. But he just has this bad temper, and doesn't care about anything.

I know who Ima talk to about this... Mr. B. He'll know what to do.

Filed under: Rants, Family
Time: 12:49 pm
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My Dad's graduation ceremony went pretty well. It wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be hehe. Oh well, he graduated right?

Apparently he only just received his undergraduate's degree in business management. Now he plans to go back and get his master's as well. I'm very proud of him, and I can't wait until he gets it.

I've been wondering a lot about love lately. I just can't seem to figure out exactly what it is. I mean, I'm sure it's different for everyone, but I just don't understand it anymore.

If there's a reason for everything, which I'm pretty sure there is, then why must we fall in love with people that we cannot be together with? Why is it that we acknowledge them so much, and would do anything for them, yet receive nothing at all in return? I don't understand why love exists in this kind of situation when it obviously serves no purpose except to drive you crazy.

I just want to know why I feel this way. I want to know why I'm in love, but will never be with the one that I love. There has to be a reason. But, what is it?